Always on My Mind you baby...

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Love quill

Write me,
on the wings of the bird
of your alphabetical kisses,
a herd.
And with my tears ink of waiting
write me in the sheet of time,
a song
Write me poems with your eyelashes quill,
dipped in my one eyed longing stream
of what is and whatever may seem
be it a staring melody of nostalgia
or a dancing tune of hope  
as we of this linguistic existence,
for a moment
elope
and then write me the sun's journey
from your one dimple to the other
and how that when you don't even bother
to shine, you just do
write me most of all your blue
that you roll on the side of insomnia,
gym pores sweat and in living room like, loo
write me prose off your fluffy hair
tell me what line should i wear,
had your words at my door,
rang
and which of my vocabulary desire- scented  necklace
may i to my bosom clause,
hang?
Write me the roses bloom off your fertile lips 
at the spring of my verse
Write me in every birth, 
what the playful sun rays had left on your skin 
after the traces of my late night wondering ballads 
write me colors of your mind palette
for the paintings my thoughts at your every coming,
brush
rainbows of possibilities cross my sky when you 
after the loudest drizzle,
beneath my literal weight,
hush
so write me the dreams that you don't remember
to my cheeks
and to my ears spell your laughter
being after the storm, your shelter
as savage as tender
to my veins shivers, whisper
your touches verdict,
scented Oud and amber 
write me your tainted hands of anger
as you hold my crucified shadow
And with your heart forgiveness fingers
sign me into your acceptance
my lifetime cheque of indulgence.

    

   

Monday, May 9, 2016

The sand of life


It's there,
when you are not looking
it's yours
when it's not in your hand
it answers
when you don't call
it hides
when you appear
what you want is so near
that you can't see
far,
as you wish it to be
it seeks you
wherever you step
speaks
when you don't listen
and it dances
only to your song
it's within you all along
what you for, long
it yearns far more
if you only knew

The older we get,
the younger
the closer in fact,
the further
it slips away from your finger
when you hold on to it the tighter,
the sand of life
and you thunder
as you whisper
lighten,
when it's sunshine darkness
the crazier the wiser
seeking it in every arms shelter
when it's just all the way
in your heart.

We leave 
when we stay
arrive
in the moment of departure
never more present
as in our absence
forgotten
only when in time, remembered
but we are afraid of the safety of knowing
that this life is just like us
another visitor
reaching only when lost.

We're partly whole
and part of the whole
we rise 
when we fall
and fall as we the highest
rise
sometimes we chase time
not knowing we are it
the punishment and the crime
the richest without a dime
we sing and rhyme
though we are the very same song
and in every divine verse,
we are but the poetry.


       


Sunday, April 3, 2016

kiss of life...

I slipped into my dreams pjs
whispered my night prayer to the lucid breeze
may i see you in my another lifetime
paradise film-stripped in flashes
and may you never remember  
where your loving soul flies to wander
as my poetic refugee
and oh, it came true my fantasy
You, Coming out of yourself
into me
Clean shaven
like a smooth criminal sea
held by the moonlight
and i was but a long lost mermaid
returning home.
like the silent waves kiss the rambling foam
our lips met
in a salty sweet word of mouth
lower lip grip
upper touch mush
soft like your soul
tender was your wordless call
eyes spread like your arms wide open
and like a kid in his mother's bosom,
i stare.
Our shy buds of youth blossom
when we dare
hands hug
life thug
riding our freedom unicorns
we make it all happen
as the sky lights up and thunder 
we ran, racing our laughter
in the fields of mellow
every tear we lick
every fear we swallow
curious clouds watching
as we painted the longing air,
in a pink kiss 
that tasted as sweet as your saying my name
for the first time to yourself
and as warm as my then, nod 
i wear your smile's dress 
i became this butterfly dance
around your fire
and you are that first rain splash
without filter or wire
feet drench in the distance mud
hearts quench within the lips lock
unbuttoned shirt
like your love
unbuckled hair
like my soul
horizontally speaking
vertically sneaking
going on and on
oh my shining sun
i should've kissed you longer
and told you what your spring
had done to my cherry trees
blooming in our another lifetime's
kiss of life.
  
  

Friday, April 1, 2016

April's not fool.

They talk about you everywhere
those who pieces of me you touched
without your hands
beautiful stories i listen to
with my soul
i wrote poems about your face
that i get to see 
with my heart
ballads in your scent
that i smell only in the air of my mind space
and in your voice
whispering those sweet nothings
i long to hear,
i rhymed my sonnets 
you're not aware of your wicked self
destroying all resistance castles i have built 
with the sand of my wait,

beneath your playful horizontal push ups
because it gets more difficult to control
with every hurling breath
palms spread empty
lips tainted chocolate
without a spoon
my heart swoon
and much on the stake
how i wished at that moment to turn into that piece of cake  
a feather by your life majestic tunnel
my skin shivers with the mysterious sneeze
bless you, if you please  

Hug me
when i least deserve it
that's when i need it the most
like in my mother's arms
i curl into your softness
and my father's at my stupidity anger
i from you, hide  
when all i want is to make him happy and proud
i roll myself in his dreams shroud
still it's never enough.
Then you came to me
like i came to you
long before we met
we do
you can count on me, my love
and i know i have in you, a home

no matter how far i fly
or how many times i not too much to, try
i realize i love you more
believe me not,
but have faith in my heart
for it's the 2nd of April
and the fools already rushed in.  



      

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Fannerism...

"How did it feel, kissing yourself?"
the short message sent said
as if there could be any words enough to tell
a shooting star of my mind life sky,
fell
carrying the endless times i wished upon its rise
for just one peck... 
I don't know if you have any clue
how endearing it is,
your being you 
How lucky you are my love,
living within your beautiful skin
glowing in your tanned skyline
like a full moon in a lover's night
you touch your hair
and the heartbeats of the world race
defying all rules of gravity  
your hair rises
and the shy buds of yearning,
bloom
this beard scratch
so fuzzy like there is nothing wrong with this life  
or could ever be
like your finally hugging me

and you get to bite your lower lip
can you imagine how many dreams are made of this sight?
then you smile
spreading the gateways of heaven 
where not an eye had seen
or an ear ever before heard
you speak and the words come out dancing
on the tunes of your voice
like they have a choice!
how melodious it is
you can then listen to you!  
you hold your hand at times
and there is no more countries or borders
distance becomes only the space between your fingers
where my heart to you lingers
you can see your face whenever you wish
this is how miraculous being you is!
it takes only a mirror glance
for the universe to unfold its colors in your eyes
as you stare for a clean shaven after a role
and the long hours run like minutes then,
in your make up room.

you get to breathe your scented air
bathe in your aromatic sweat
stay awake with yourself all night
and hold your tiered self when you lay down as tight
you don't need shooting stars
or new year wishes
you can hug your heart and the pain will heal

and when you cry,
the tears are but your own soul kisses
you close your eyelids and shut the world away
at your mind door, my poems and i by then lay ashtray
but i understand, it's okay to be at times selfish
and take all of your precious self to you

Excited dreams come cheering
hoping to be seen
your brain is also mean
keeping all your random thoughts in
you wake up to your sleepy voice
asking for Coffee
and your fingers searching for the lighter
what daylight could ever be brighter,
than your face at the tiny steps of your in your arms jumping li'l one  
not even the sun
could bring more warmth
than what your eyes at his smile radiate  
so what if you get up late
time stops with your being with you
now you can see how much  jealous i am my love
of how lucky you are with your solitude
and How wonderful it is, 
just to be your most beautiful self fan.


     
  

 

Thursday, March 17, 2016

Overdose..

How many nights
lie awake in your hair forests
without a moon
Seducing the northern winds
upon your face tempest,
hurl
what cursed view is taking your eye?
why isn't it my one black and white eye?
where do they go
with your soul?
who got your call?
my heart drowns
your forehead frowns
and heavens gates split
at the eyebrows tilt
fields of magical roses bloom
in between the lids
darkened guards
your kohl eyed
strip bare
before my sips
Oily drops
your honey sweat dips
to my thirst,
crawling rivers.
slopping down
in your itching town
of lust
population of rhapsody
high on your fervored ecstasy
i lay in my twilight zone
in the center of your beard delights 
i want to listen to their stories
they tell when you are asleep
and how it feels to be around your lips
may be they can share some tips
oh in my mind i take those trips
to your high lands of lechery
juicy syrup leaks
on your carved shaft of pleasure
spills on your chest 
heavenly Nectar..
coming too far
in me, they melt.

your gazing lines
Scruffy word grips
on my open wounds
like salty whips
Drenching wet, 
our eyes met, 
Not looking. 

Don't ever stop...
may we never reach anywhere
it's most beautiful when we dare
my hands in your well combed hair
and yours just messing around my life straight. 


     

Monday, March 14, 2016

Sounds of love





She asked if you were a melody
what would you sound like?
and your love notes played off my mind
what would i sound like?
my heart lingered...
like the breeze whispering his name
like the rain drops kissing the earth at his feet
like his name upon my lips
like our flowing rivers roaring in depth
like the sun song upon his face
like every dream about him i chase
like all children of the world laughing in his eyes
along with the nightingales of solitude  
like the moon of my pleasure howling at his absence wolf
like the butterflies of my mind flapping their colored wings
at his fingers wordily petting 
like their mad cheers at the gate on his birthday
as if i was there
and the sad tears rolling on my cheeks all day
because i wasn't.. 
like the desert roses ballad at the his smiles monsoon
like how it's too late too soon
like all my dreams coming true
at his sight
may be i would sound like this night
like every shooting star fall
in the space filled of wishes
may be i could sound like the loudest screams of his silence
or the fifteen minutes of quietude at the edge of his bed  
like the thunder storms rising as he strikes his hair
and the turbulent winds whistling, as he blinks 
like the aching violins of my waiting
and the moonlight sonata of his arrival
   
May be i would sound like the letters
to him, i never sent 
or the poems, about him i wrote
and never read
may be i would sound like the words
i heard of his lips, but he never said
or like the old church ringing bells
at the newly neighbouring weds
like the cobblestone streets of real, waltz at our reel steps
and for that matter, like the lens click cluck of our
never taken photograph
Oh my dear one, what to tell you...
i would only sound like his love.   


    

My Poems Recitations for My Shah...

VFXed.. Dreams.. Fan Notes..