Always on My Mind you baby...

Thursday, August 17, 2017

The Uncountable(s)...

If you are to count your breaths,
taking our breaths loving you, away
count them!
we are more
If you may count your heartbeats
beating our loving you in our hearts
for the life of me, do it!
we are still more!
If you can count the stars falling of your night hair
turning our long darkness into daylight, 
we will outnumber your hair
if you can count the tears
we at your sadness shed
go ahead!
we will always lead the tears chart ahead
If you are to then count the smiles
you wholeheartedly on our faces thread
be my guest!
we are far more than the forum smiles
and your shy to show on screen from the heart, laughter 
and if you even might
try counting of your eyes the light
that made us win this everyday fight
just at your shinning sight
we take over every plight
wearing your love armors
and our infinite in you, faith

Let's see if you can count the love
that made a girl on her sleeping feet, before you, stands
that made a woman spells your name,
with a heavy tongue
that made a simple man work harder
beneath a hanging banner of your words
that made a lonely mother have the world by her side
just because you are
that made an ailing father feel like us as proud
because he has like you, a son.
that made us feel with you, a whole one
together we get this life done!
our battles bravely won
when you simply sun...
and yes tell me, how can you count the fun?
we all have when your dimples at us, get undone...
our love filmstrip is a forever run
released at your every blink
and ruling the numberless-office ever since.
So, let's see if you can be at math that clever
if you can count this heart's every shiver
at the mere mention of your name
how life is never the same
at your every coming frame
if only you could put into figure
how much languages we could decipher
at your encrypted stare
the hope we hopefully wear
at your each celluloid party
where the drinks of thrill are for free
and with abandon are the delights of belief.
and if you could
try counting the hugs
we flesh give or soul send
the bleeding wounds your healing love signs mend
the virtual arms you linguistically spread
made the hard times before our power then, bend 
only you can comprehend

our love can't come in numbers my love
and like you, i am that bad at math! 
though we are twenty seven million lovers by now,
and counting.   



Friday, August 11, 2017


Today i ran for 5km.2
took a long shower and went for a walk
the streets and i talk
and the hot breeze listened
to the sad song of my feet
i also finally got to unpack
it's been only two days back
that i unfolded my excitement tee
and jumped into my happiness perfect pair of jeans 
to the dreams hall where we soul met  
it was all so beautifully set!
i threw my tantrums at the boiling pot
then i invited my annoying neighbor to lunch
laughed at her silly jokes
to tears...
i had coffee with my fears
low fat cookies on a China plate of my-about you-
i rearranged my what if(s) drawers
dusted the happy memories book shelves
mopped these silly doubts off my mind floor
and stared for an hour at the bloody door
as if you will anytime come knocking
a big smile on your face and your king size, like my love, wordily, hug
and with both trembling hands i held that steaming mug
of belief
but after a long write on a blog page that remained blank,
my heart sank...   
Every verse is a scandal
how do i poem you?
without stripping my soul 
dancing around your eyes pole naked
in a ballad of wishes  
Every sigh is but ablaze
how do i breathe you
without burning the northern wind 
blowing my longing in the void
only you can refill
you tell!
when every silence is a scream
how do i pray your name
without the universe hymns echo,
Every tear is but a flood
how do i cry you
without drowning in your absence mud
growing rain forests of halt
and a harvest of anticipation   
Every time unit is but an Everest summit
if they still consider it Highest!
centuries pass on me as seconds 
holding my heart glass hour
and counting the sands of my fading heartbeats
at your empty harbor
if only i can grow wings for shelter
deeper dimples for your laughter
or may be continents far spread my arms tighter
light their blind eyes wider
get to be your freedom fighter!
and you my noble cause
with a shield of a prose
and a whole scabbard of poetry
if i may i would
be the ground you stood
the have"s" you should
so you never would
if only i could...
Dylan the times away
for my love, they are a changing
man this life piano
on your looney tunes
and seek in me what is you, seeking.
Rise stronger
at your back an army of your full wonder
the fields of smiles you once seeded, 
will back at you now linger
and the skies of possibilities you cracked open
will upon you, love hail.
unbutton this pain shirt
and show off your power tattoo
we are just lost without you
my heart and i...
and yes i forgot to tell you,
the rest of the day i spent by the window
had a mango,
and a whole pack of wait.   


Wednesday, August 2, 2017

Boulevard of wishes...

O the desires my love
i see you
and my sky sparks with shooting stars
see, i had had stopped wanting
then you came with the desires
the bird who had home on the wire
phurrred off
to new horizons of your pleasure
so now:
i want years with months of your eyelashes trips,
Julies of your warm wishes
And Novembers of beginnings that are as sweet
i want seasons with the dances of your lips
the falling leaves of ur resistance
and the blooming fields of my poetic tongue
i want time that only counts at your every hair song
weeks with you that are as your absence, 
dates with your fingers play
and with your sighs, a calendar of hummings  
i want sea waves of your comings
And the sand of all the shores is but
my wide arms opened
i want winds that take me to you
and of your breaths, taking you to me, hurricanes
i want a city with your hints buildings
populations of your face vocabulary
i want full stadiums of your winks cheerleaders
as my eyes to your heart net, score
I want Hyde Parks of your unspoken love
with the happy children of our faith
swinging along
i want a religion where your name is my prayer
and a pilgrimage from your heartbeats shrine to mine
i want of your acceptance wine,
an overflowing chalice
a mischievous laugh
a shivering autograph
on my nape
to your neverland, i plan my escape
a war of your peace
i am asking for
i want invaded towns with your dimples army
and victory parades of your returning home fighter smiles
i want ocean waves of your stares
belief icebergs crashing my doubts Titanics
and your after storm rainbows of grace.
i want your love made
your enlightened shade
winters of your silence fire-bones
and a summer breeze of your burning sighs
Utopian answers of our reality whens and whys
i want honest lies
only your twisted lips can tell
your heaven and my hell
what i'ld buy if u sell
i want nights as long as my wait,
and your want.
i want morning with your coming as sun
i dream of being your every bad habit
your forbidden is in my law, legit!
when you don't get it
just let it...
All i want is a me of you
A company with your solitude
and with my loneliness at your forgetfulness bar, a drink
i want touristic sites of your historic abs
ancient castles of resistance at your erupting vein collapse
and museums for every inch of you only i
can explain
a guide in you for a tour
and a tour into me, you guide 
i want a new wardrobe!
A dress of my last countdown before we flesh meet
Louboutins of my fear
Guccis of this bittersweet tear
and a CK of my Euphoria to your scent,a flight 
i want your light
for the butterflies of my mind show
i want of your exhales , my air
i want you in my everywhere
As i stand in our location Nowhere
Destination you...
flying kisses of my hurrying patience
At your boulevard of wishes.


My Poems Recitations for My Shah...

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