Always on My Mind you baby...

Friday, December 31, 2010

One man show...

My lips moisture
as they spell your name
when my heart calls for its beats
tears take back seats
when my eyes shelter your face
in a divine grace
comforting you in the front row
as my lashes bow
to cover your adoring gaze
lost in our maze

I raise my curtains
to carry away your burdens
and for a change be your host
within my arms you may rest
and be my only guest
and i would serve you my life and more
so that i shall live no more
without you

In your play i am an amateur
swirling around my powerful master
on my stage you lead the show
random flow
wild and raw
you are my key
when i lose my line
my refugee
that is only mine

My song would hush
in a favorite blush
once you lean upon my cheek
daring eyes turning so weak
I hear the cheers
of the joyful tears
that wet your palm
shaking away that ragging calm
in a moment out of time
we spell our passion in a kiss

All is one
equation done
curtains down
as we are turning around
to melt in that final act
almost intact
One more lifetime to come
One more resolution of love
Sprinkled dreams in a package
in your handbag luggage
Tenderly tight
we are to be
That Play of Renaissance

Crash these plates of pain
unset those dates in vain
be in me
My new year referee
and i would just promise you
one endless show
with unconditional running
and only your two clapping hands.
as our celebrating breaths setting the new professional formula.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010


Dreams have another sound
that i know by heart
ticking to my soul
every night
rising to my fall
Holding on tight
As I call them,
The One and the All
He is.
The one who is nameless
Identified with my confusion
like the touch of time
within me,
He is the Time .

Is the one who is only few letters
of a love word
haphazardly visited with those,
shutting the doors of fantasies,
Opening the roads of ecstasies,
Inviting the tears to roll
on lines of euphoric submission
and the "Hows"
that are Exotically unanswered
craving in His moaning silence

He is more then
a "No!", a "Never will be.",
A Happening He is in me
a "would it ever?" or a "when?"..
a stammer
between tears and laughter
He is not more then few numbers,
Those of the lottery ticket
I am playing with my fate.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


I watched them all
holding me tight
turning this night
into a daydream of love
Lots of gifts
colors of joy
it was warm
around that tree
only i didn't see Me!
that Me, they all did
I only see you instead

I had to smile
walking this aisle
of hope.
I have been here before
where the sweet memories
savagely brush
this weakened hush
my mind keeps begging for
to fake some strength

That star on top
knows my secret
it shines for me,
with extra glow
perhaps it is time to go
my certain steps along the hall
for now,i don't hear them call
unwrapping their love boxes
of the season

On my way out
I heard your breath
beneath this wreath
One warm shiver flies
as you handled my eyes
resting my wanderings
to your unanswered belongings
in a moment,
I became that me
that you always see
when the others don't

I invited myself
to your Obsession
that me
I love the most to be
with you.
I know by now, it is that true
all i ever really wanted
for Christmas
is you.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010


Holding my fluffy kitty
I sat by the memories fireplace
Listening to the old stories
Told by the granny
To the little kids
About that charming knight
Who made the princess fall
deep into his heavenly call
When he arrived once
In her insomniac night
giving her one more chance
to live

Like the moon
he was revealed
in the face of life,
as her protective shield
Her beauty was his bliss
his lips, melting in her kiss
That she disappeared
Ever since
that mischievous kiss

Riding his dreams
He took her there
In his everywhere
She used to cook for him
Her thoughts for dinner
Inhaling his glories
out of her life breath
Cleaning up his burdening worries
with a tender smile
the minute he comes home
to her arms
She polishes her lips
With his all night trips
Weaving from his absence
Her cold winter shawl of warmth
Recording his victories glows
upon her royal skin
The triumphant knight bows
Submitting to her within
He gently slips
All his tears
on her cheeks
Smashing her fears
She invites the stars
To their night parade
lean upon the moon
at his darkened shade
her whole being blossoms
at his arrival
pouring within her bosom
his longing arousal
he picks from her eyes
her all day stories
she fingertips of his humming cries
all his paralyzed answers
in their kingdom of dreams
they lived happily ever after

One enchanted laughter
sarcastically cynical
Slipped of my screaming silence
chills in my bones
dreams extended for loans
for now,it just seems to come back
as the oak branches crack
In the fireplace
I heard our favorite track
Playing in the background of my childish mind.

Sunday, December 5, 2010


Too beautiful it was
like a dream
that never ends
in my eyes
you are

Too beautiful we were
burning in the steam
our love sheds
in silent sighs
Too close yet this far
you are

Too beautiful to last
this future that is the now
and the past
gray is our broadcast
too much fog
verses in a blog
frozen tears
swallowed fears
savage cries
unanswered whys
Lines of guilt
initials on the side of a woven quilt
trembling warmth
as winter comes
when i once thought
all the seasons are here
only when you are

like a star
you smile to me
haunting my ecstasy
with your absence
painting my existence
with these unspoken words
you never said
these open arms hugs
you never spread
wearing on that lifetime moment
we never actually spent
around my heart
whispering in my nape
breathing your escape
upon my skin

dressed in your words
stripping off all boards
my melancholy
That all i have for now
is just a sweet memory
that is too beautiful
to pass by
without being slayed
in its bittersweet

Monday, November 29, 2010


As if you are here
i paint the walls with your name
in scattered verses
and i recite them
to myself
of spelling you
between my lips

As if you are here
I wear your favorite fragrance
sprinkling your memory around your absence
picking the stars off my night curtain
trying to get off that heavy burden
of my solitude
within the crowd
dressed in my shroud,
i slide
wish i can hide
forever in your eyes
yeah, still smiling
within your disguise

Scented candles dance
in your aroma
i still keep the way you smell
when your skin has much to tell
to my lips
i still keep souvenirs of your trips
around my wonderland of secrets
in my fortified shell
i still keep you
this deep inside
where all my senses chaotically shiver
their mischievous survival
celebrating your arrival
to my dreams
as i close my eyes
sneaking off these desperate whys
and just feeling you near
as if you are here

Then i dance
with your shadow
and i stumble in your feet
shattering my hair locks in your treat
in my palm i felt one tear
helplessly shed
what is it that has not yet been said?
To you..
what is it that yet needs to be done instead,
For you to!
once you were near..
now, all i have is this cruel pretending..
as if you are here.

Monday, November 22, 2010


It is when you listen
to what i don't say
that i
speak the most

It is when you see
what i don't reveal
that i
shine the most

It is when you smell
what i don't sprinkle
that my scented aroma
becomes your most
favorite fragrance

It is when you touch
where i don't Expose
that my shaken hesitation
settles the most
within your painting fingers
that linger

It is when you taste
what i don't serve
that my bitter sweetness
drip the most
around your fulfillment
arousing your marinated dips
into that savage

It is when i say nothing at all
that your silence says it all
it is when i fall
the most
within your deeper

It is when i see you around
in all the faces
making this humming sound
playing silently all my chords
that you are
the most
dwelling wanderer

It is when i touch you
beneath the veil of time
where only you and i reach
it is when i close my eyes
and sail
to where our senses prevail
that i feel you
the most

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Between the lines...

If you could read my mind
those thoughts that i wouldn't tell
my heaven dipped in your hell
this sacred taboo
I ink on your skin
shining like a forbidden tattoo
that merges from my within
dancing secretly
in your eyes
you are there
holding these letters
in a parade of glitters
or better
you are the weather
that swings me in all the seasons
at once
you land like a lazy feather
your logical madness upon all my reasons
these thoughts of you
I run to every time i close my eyes
haunt me like feverish lullabies
cradling my insomniac nights
to sleep
echoes of your whispers
sinking so deep
taking me to where you are
in a simple blink
why do you think?
why do i love you this much?
that what you can possibly know
when you see what the words don't show
If only you
could read my mind
pouring,between the lines.

Monday, November 1, 2010

Birthday Package...

Psssst..You,Birthday boy!

you have a package
In your mind,
that one of a kind
of love
I can see your shy smile
I can even feel your breath
within the ribbons
these red satin
stripes of surprise
what could it be?
yes, your heart is right
It is me

that everlasting dream
you normally inhale in the steam
of your morning coffee

It is me
those million women in one
your forever moon and sun
your thunderous pleasure
and Exotic lines of fun
your daring wanna be

It is Me
the wanderer
in your tiny details
the one
your presence she inhales
for life
Forty five
years of bliss
now i confess
If it wasn't for you
perhaps i wouldn't be
the one you now see
in your refuge

like a pure morning due
tenderly shed in your hue
that true
I am to be
yet your fantasy

It is still Me
the one who will always love you
and free

Come closer
and hold your gift
not much time is left
till your are reborn in my ecstasy

hiding in my glittering blush
your gentle whispers hush
my twirling petals hum
your heartbeats dance on my drum
to where the night is celebrating
see, the moon unfolding his stars
touch, your time, crash those bars
Fly to the highest peak
I hear you when you don't speak
I feel you when you just be
the only one living in me

blow the candles
burn the bundles
of fear
a tear?
no, its one of joy
You my Birthday boy
bring it all out of Me
when you sacredly untie the ribbons
of my infinite offering
carving your initials in my heart
hanging around your chest
my spell
in hieroglyphic hymns
I am encrypted
deciphered in a satin package
that is that gently savage
now, it is the time
to taste
your own delicious Homemade cake.

Happy Birthday my love..may all your dreams come true, one by one..with love.

Monday, October 25, 2010


He is that nasty
That beautiful Gangster
holding guns in his deep pockets
taking lives with dancing bullets
Hiding behind a dark Ray-Ban
keeping the child
exposing the man
playing with life rated toys
living these fantasies of growing up boys
enjoying the game
of the rational nonsense
claiming the fame
of his defeated resistance
at her sight
roaming his mind
for one more rewind
to get her close
to the one he once was
but then his laughter cracks
there are no come-backs
It is a non-stop tune
that is on a shuffle
his infinite struggle
with that daring Him
and that frightened Him
the child-man is having fun
Holding the moon and melting the sun
In her eyes
his time flies
for seconds
he is her vampire knight
sucking his life out of her night
then he gets bored
his agony roared
but she is still his weakening strength
arranging all his vulnerability
upon her lips
he strikes
all his wits
inviting her bits
to recollect in his fits
her presence hits
all his toughness
in the heart
that part
is still in flesh
pumping this nagging flood
that pours life in blood
and her name
his mind is in a shame
but it is never the same
when she is that around!
his silence is nothing but her sound
he is where she is found
brushing all his skills
the time comes for his demons pills
counting the dreams in that little boy's eyes
he mastered the art of smiling lethal allebyes

His danger calls him
for one more trip
Her thunder drags him
arousing on her tip
Car-sequence haunting
flying off that 300ft building
He makes them all in cold blood
charming death,
to sit and watch
giving birth to his seventh life
In her arms
the child in him still enjoys cartoons
craving for that candy and some balloons
yet His anxious urge
is soon to emerge
and he is back
again in black
riding his extremes
flashing his own beams
within her eyes
He knows it by now
whenever it is the time,
it is only by her side
that gentle whisper
rubbing his scars
that soft and tender
carving her initials
on the walls of his darkness
humming, at that shivering gush
the beast in him, would actually blush..
at her touch..
bringing all his pains home
taming his bewildered syndrome
of fear
so near
just like the breeze
with his own aroma
driving his mind on a high speed wheel
His frontiers of Steele
keep her safe
inside that fresh part
that nobody knows about
In his heart
Sarcastically smiling,
pressing the engine to the maximum burn.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Your Geisha...

Unlocking black strands
tangled around in buckles
floating in your ripples
I hide in your shell
all i have to tell
moistened within your lips
arousing my censored grips
I heavenly come in tiny steps
My craving drips
pour in your eyes
million secret i tend to keep
beyond that mask of smiling weep
those you would know
so much into me you grow
I tenderly shake your silence
defeating triumphantly, my resistance

Finally, in your arms
I feel that savage warmth
on your knees
My scented breeze
invading your senses
this oriental aroma
silken red cushions
inflaming confessions
black and white
colors of my soul revealing light
burning in your ecstasy
reaching your mind
I am all that you mind
all that you find
in my Samurai tales
is the way i spell the words
dancing upon my breathe
sneaking to your nape
in a dangerous escape
where my lips dare
to blush
red cherry taste
Exposing my flickering mist
around your dips
playing all my tricks
one by one
you enjoy this rated fun
inviting your wits
like the moon and the sun
we become the whole one
skin to skin
your virtuous sin
I dance in feverish bliss
on the drum rolls of your kiss
your silence is My myth
brushing my fears
upon your thunderous flesh
wearing your tears
pearls of my mischievous wish
bundled in Sushi rolls
within your lips, my flavor crawls
Beating your cold nights
Our adventurous fantasy
that much you are into me
My daring desire
sets you on fire
Turning the cold October chills
into some ragging thrills
living each line
of Your Geisha Memoirs.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

At the airport...

I opened my heart
to your sunshine
yes,you are that mine
I kissed your every inch
in my mind
sitting on that wooden bench
replaying the whole scene on rewind
embracing your fragrance
around the breeze
the minutes don't pass
as my feet hold the grass
I ran
followed by the sun
wearing your arrival
exposing my arousal
the time consumed my patience
Then, i reached the crowd
heartbeats racing loud
I got you a rose
rising on my toes
wish i was taller
to see you first
wish i was closer
to hold you tight

then the air suddenly lightened
butterflies twirling enlightened
in my eyes
I didn't know if i was still alive
that moment i saw you arrive
your steps invaded my silence
like i see my every night dream come true
i didn't realize what should i do
three words stuck in my throat
this craving "I love you..."
then i screamed them loud
with all my guts
they thought i was nuts
your silky hair invited
my fingers to sink within
lighting on a cigarette
in a circle of smoke
you spoke
in a minute
i became all ears
hardly i could stop two tears
of joy
I stood there
you were everywhere
in me
droped the pen
and the paper
your eyes felt safer
to hide within
I just didn't know
heaven was so beautiful
waves of shivers flow
paralyzing my existence
but in a moment i was smashed
as your eyes fell on me
your smile was dancing for me
I was shaking
the world was shaking
when you stepped out of the circle
riding your warming whisper
in your hands i found my shelter
they were warm and cuddly
in your arms i rested happily
you caressed my trembling locks
your scent
musk and sandalwood
the whole world stood
"yes,i will"
I replied
as you asked
will you be alright?

they asked you to go
I felt that raw
and as the crowd split
the rose was still in my hand
so i kept running
and called your name
as if you knew
you turned in hue
"here, just for you"
closer to your nose
that aristocratic nose i adore
smiling once more
your opened arms
supplied my life with warmth
forever and more
I got to touch your hair
keeping you inside my everywhere
I heard your heartbeats chasing mine
I am living you, my sunshine
your lips on my face
blew me out of my space
"I will keep the rose"
you said
"and you,
keep the heart."

Friday, October 8, 2010

In her white coat...

Lots of books
hold you in
where to begin
wondering within the lines
deciphering life signs
holding on to love
and spreading laughter
in her heart
i hear a whisper
Her time is yet to come
pure like the morning sun
she shines with her innocence
a flashing light
in the midst of darkness
one day
you will draw more smiles
on the pained souls
healing their flesh wounds
and listening to their desperate calls
i already see you
wearing that white coat
and a beating heart

Happy Birthday Junior
yes, you are that beautiful and more :)
may all your days be filled with joy, happiness and lots of LOVE..:)

This one is special dedication to my dear friend Lola, who is in her last year of Med school and about to become a very fantastic Doctor :) study hard junior! you are going to achieve miracles with your heart and soul :)
SRK is here and sending you his best wishes, cutting the cake himself..ha ha ;)

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


I know the lines
on your forehead when you frown
i see your pulsing nerves
in your neck
those ones i yearn to lick
when they bump

the lines of your lips when you pout
when i am what you don't talk about
your lips linger
to whisper
my name
burning my flame
with a devouring sigh
and an expert thumb

i know the lines of your nape
as it meets my lips in a soft angle
moisturizing mingle
they shiver
in acquainting trigger
the minute they press
your spine confess
my love
like a savage hallucinating drum
i come
closer to your shoulder blades
surfing on the lines of your back
vertical beggars
mystical dwellers
are my scented blows
as they embrace the wondering quivers
enchanted to my well trained fingers
painting my longing
reciting your belonging
to me

Feel me
signing in my presence
on your craving sheets
all over yours
hold me
as my lips would haunt your skin
spelling all my secrets of existence
to your dripping tongue
Our sweetness pours

shape my being on your chest
with drops of joy
would touch your hardness
to hear your moan under my softness
humid strikes
louder spikes
your silence,
i scream as my own
i just feel it when you moan
at my savage slides
tender collides
show ups and hides
you in me
eternal joy
perpetual bliss

what do the lines know
they are just ruling the show
resting on my curves
liberating all your nerves
melting our beings
into the One
let us erase the lines as we meet
let us erase the curves as we become Us.

Friday, October 1, 2010

To Farooq, with all our love...

It is not just another day!
is His Birthday...
The sky is brighter
as he lazily open his eyes
the air is lighter
when he lovingly whisper his butterflies
to the scrolling page
the sun shines
all the way from where he is
spreading the warmth on his close friends
his hands
gently whips their rolling tears
his arms
tenderly wrap their growing fears
his presence
powerfully enhance their safety
he manages their happiness
virtually but wholeheartedly
he comes in bliss
blowing them a kiss
from afar
like a shooting star
for them to make a wish
when all the orbits turn on their own
he carves on the stone
his tale
a real fighter wearing his heart
yes, my friend we are never apart
it has been written down
on the sheets of time
smile once more
and spread your wings
your soul rises around our silence
and our love will always be holding your heart.

This is a very special dedication for my very dear friend Farooq on his birthday,it might not be so much but he does mean so much more to me for words to tell.
Farooq,you are my brother, one i have met his heart before meeting his face, have the best birthday ever and know,you are our MAN we love you that much bro.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

He is My Sea...

"It has been so long
since you have been gone"
i heard myself thinking...
Wearing all my hesitation
I counted the stairs
on my way up
before the door
pouring my thoughts on the floor
as he opened in a watery mood
all i could see
he was the sea
this mysteriously inviting
this tenderly enchanting
for a swim
our lips met
in full set
sweet and salty
scented and misty
his presence roared
devouring my silence
currents of desire
passed through my wire
bare soul i shivered
his daring dots were delivered
moving within him
on the edge of a kiss
flooded by music
his being strategic
pained,like the steps dancing on the pavements of passion
under the evening rain, was my confession
bare feet wearing the lightness of our lust
the sea took off his black glasses
and his black shirt
dangerously climbing all my thirst
he sat down and looked at me
half of him was made of ink
the other half was the sea
He stripped me of my questions
between the tides
I was the ebbs
drowning me as his fate
his own liberated state
half of him became shyness
the other half seducing me
I was gripped by a fever of kisses
He pinned and rode me
watching my confusion
scattered in his illusion

I enjoyed his geographical mess
beneath his waves,i yearned to confess
I tried to cover,
under a quilt of paralyzed words and sighs
"don't cover up,
I can see you in the darkness of ink
I feel your mad pulse louder as you sink
only the lantern of desire is shining on your body now
our love has always lived in the darkness of the senses"
he said.
His hurricane blew away all my questions
spread like foam on his bed of lust

In contrast
the sea was rising forward
conquering my resistance
staking banners of masculinity everywhere it passed
with every area he declared occupied or liberated
I discovered how enormously helpless i was before him
His words,like his fingers
these gentle torturers
became matches burning everything inside of me
his virility startled me
as i wiggled in his arms like a fish
starting the rituals of gradual surrender
he suddenly stopped me
"Do you really love me?"
despite the distance?
and the reasonable madness?
lines he didn't say
I crashed them with a sway
His voice was a mixture of ironic pain
his voice has the delayed taste of tears
in a thunderous grip
he took me on his trip
Then,the storm had ended
the sea had left me
a corpse of love washed up on the shores of astonishment.
the sea withdrew,
implanting my body between two poems and two tears
but the salt remained,
as long as i remained
like a refilled sea sponge,
i woke up, it is 8pm
crawling out of my luxurious fantasy
getting ready to meet Him,
The Sea, storming his dimples at the waving crowd.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Just imagine...

you and me
the ones we dream to be
melting like flavored ice-creams
in our kingdom of dreams
deliberately delicious
randomly lubricious
just you and me
flying in the everywhere
landing on our ecstasy
laying in our own nest
nurturing the breeze
enjoying the rest
just imagine
it was only a blink away
that we are never that faraway
and we would sink in our joy
break the world like a rusty toy
adventurous kids
tearing away the bids
lets play
the game has just begun
ours is the only way
as i always imagine
you are my Peter Pan
you are the hero and the man
coloring my plain life sheets
with your wildest palette
arranging all my lines on reset
for my imaginable fun.
the road is ours, as we run
you are my sun
and the daring moon face
your craving demons i would chase
me, that late night riddle
you desperately try to solve
you, my long lasting giggle
that your lips tenderly dissolve
let me be that shoulder
you lean upon when you need to cry
let me be that whisper
that you silently slip in a roaring sigh
wrap me around your weakened spots
let me be the sound of your helpless shots
sketch on me, your wildest lines
as in your eyes, i read my signs
let's take off where our madness leads
weave my dreams with your colorful beads

feel my hand
around your fall
greet the stage
bow to our storming rage
wave to your spectacular audience
my eyes,your lips,our madness
listen to your soul
moaning as i pour within
I am your virtue and the sin
our hell becomes
enchanting heaven
just close your eyes for a second
and just imagine
there are no longer you and me
no more separating numbers,
just us, melting in the One.

My Poems Recitations for My Shah...

VFXed.. Dreams.. Fan Notes..