Always on My Mind you baby...

Friday, November 16, 2012

Your Cult...





In the temple of your love
i built a shrine
burnt some incens
poured some wine
out of my grapes
all the shapes
you take
as i invited your vision over for a ritual
This ancient actual
unfolded my drips,
Enchanted your fictional
loosened those arms 
of your mastering grips
charmed  in our pharaonic hymn
That monothiastic priestess in your cult
i am...

"Be mine"
Your turbulent wind whispered
with your name i am bewildered
shivers run along my spine
Crucified tears in a darkened line
rain droplets lay by my window
gentle autumn breeze rests on my face
who is winning this race?
your absent presence or is it my present absence?
making all sense of my nonsense
i sink...

Drawing hearts and a broken arrow
with the yearning steam
i touch your shadow
Then  you rise
Hail to your Highness
my prince of darkness...
before thee i bow
fields of beauty in me just grow
what can i say that you don't know?




Words are cursed in your spell
your love is heaven and sweetened hell
wrapped around your thoughts,
i fly universes
within your vivid mind
we cry, laugh smile and nod
we become the even and the odd
life istself stands still
time is what we plan to kill
closed my eyes on your calling sight
stared in my darkness aspiring your light
i fight...
your black and my white
i ain't  no angel nor you are a saint
we are the mad lovers From  the kingdom of belief
drenched in my madness i still fly
riding my hopeless dream to your infinite sky
melting like all my scented candles do
cinnamon roses and amber 
exhausting the breathless hours 
expecting what you never do
spread like red petals upon your alter
carved in reliefs all over your skin
one night you will return
I linger...




Bless that shrine your absence burn
Spell my blood all over your verse
swear and yell
crash and curse
kill those fears, smash all doubts
Restore my bruised soul to your heart
that even  fate can't do us apart.



Wednesday, November 7, 2012

The Muse...


On his own terms
he comes and goes
directing his life shows
On her, His every breath grows
handcuffed to his self made bars
on cloud n-9 prison cell
living his own heaven in hell
funambling between the stars
lonely like the moon and the sun
humbly pleases everyone
mercilessly whips his soul
even on the top, he can't have it all
misleading his heart
within her always, even when apart
racing his own shadow
refilling her memories hollow
She just don't get it
He will never say it
bleeding his smiles out
arms wide open for love
over and about



all he needs is a rewind button
a restore click
Fairy's magical stick
and a bunch granted wishes
mother's home made dishes
and old VCR movies nights
back to back
with world cup game
it is never the same
with PS3 FIFA fever
or 50 inch LED screen receiver
Connected always yet detached
To his own red flesh lizards attached
Love floats in little innocent eyes
humming his tucked in lullabies
wait, Moon is still up
His majesty owns the night hub
not till the sun shines on the love bundles by his side
that his aching hopes may lay aside
Heavy Eyelids silently scream
lips shiver with the quivering steam
puts off the cigarette
slips into her memories outfit
she is already around
Dreams land bound
can time return?
to when they were all around
to when it was only sister's red tights
and blue table napkin superman fights
that innocent kid
a favorite pink piano they said
father's roundabouts, tears shed
can they bring back the warmth?



so he runaway
A wild angry dream
strained from life
soaked in strive
eating his years with extra salt
consumed in fears, wearing his hart
a Fugitive to her imaginary arms
defusing fate bombs in killing charms
arrogantly submitted
Exclusively exhibited
candid and spotted
at the alter of the ordinary
sacrificed to his own time illusion Cult 
yet resurrected in her heart
the god...
and the Muse.













Monday, November 5, 2012

Landmark

Dividing your picture
into thousand parts
to adore each one alone
sacredly
like a prayer,
recited to your eyes
my tears roll
of ecstacy
each one on its own
without tiredness 
with all happiness
you will feel it
silently
My little cells humming
Enchanted with your coming
darkened nights prince
kiss your every tear
one by one
till you shine on My sun
with This relieving smile
missed for a while
helplessly 
holding on to my lips
life will then become alright
for you are its light
to me



Imprisoning all these torturing thoughts

hurting your sensitive brain
let them all fall in vein
one by one
savagely
into my chaotic mind
that you shall never suffer
wrapping myself as your offer
and sacrificed Kurban

Crashing all limits of your existence

clearing you the path
with Young roses and grass
turning into a mad colors palette
blending your sins in my regret 
feverishly
Painting you a stairway to heaven
would leave you my space
each word on its own
poetically
spelling the verse on your face
one poem at a time
Living Hell in your embrace
Burning to the rhyme
Rising with every line from Ashes
wholeheartedly
liberated to the core
in a house without walls,
not even a door
indefinite shore  
as i love you more
your pains i devour
only bliss, 
you are made for
may be a kiss?
i would lay still for
over and over
repeatedly
i swallow
your darkest warmest shadow
in my void
anthropoid
that spark in your gaze
deeper lines in my maze
playfully



we run and hide
in the layers of hope
cruelly we even elope
here, my hands to stop that seperation wind
melting to the memories rain
may you never feel any pain
no sadness again
hanging myself on to silver moon
pleading guilty to your absence thunder
sentenced to being your soul whisperer
living only in your beautiful mind
one flash at a time
willingly
collecting your pieces of my rejuvenated flesh
One per inch
carving your initials upon each spot
Territories wide shot
Geographically yours
Blood shed 
Beautifully unsaid
Toe to Head 
i still burn
when you turn
and never look back
To your very own Landmark.



   







     

Thursday, November 1, 2012

Birthday boy...



Dear November,
There you Rise as i whisper
each year i wait
but you always come late
and i get so excited on your second day
only few more hours away
His Birthday...
6.30 am He said
as early as he ever arrived in life
a lucky child they happily noted
loved by millions and owns Hearts
Top of each chart
His Kingdom is made of loving beats
Heaven is when My life, He greets
every day i fly
with a word, a line or even a sigh
Eyes get shy
so much warmth he brought
to the Wild Random Thought
Riding his dreams,
His energy beams
and i love him more...
This year stronger than before...
Forever&More...


Eyes wide shut
like every year i start
celebrating his day on my own
Dress shopping,
beauty salon visit
colors and lights as much exquisite
Scented candles
roses in bundles
Room door sealed
Year wounds healed
I wear his aroma as fragrance
he is all about substance
i won't forget the cake
strawberry and cream i bake
colored ribbons and funny stickers
and when it's already midnight
all our loverswould rush to your sight
opening the window to let them in
the silver moon brings you beauty
and the golden Sun offers you grace
only for you king face..
Shouting star granted you wishes
may you never be any more far
tenderly joining butterflies and bees
dancing around the longing trees
you make the world spin
 darling, you win!
million hugs just for you..
Birthday boy...i just love You...




Let's go
over there beyond the rainbow
leave these heavy burdens down
Me the queen and You my crown
laughing our life out
happy as it should all be about
let's fly
away from the solitude ground
fairy tales kingdom bound
Bursting smiles
watching you play your macho tricks
that little boy with candy sticks
sweetness dreams covering them both
honey rivers of tickles and vows
innocent promises
eternal faithfulness
Life is heaven
That we don't buy




all we are made of is fun
me the moon and you the sun
close your eyes right now my king
to me you are my everything
one more time let's make a wish
smile for me and break a dish
dimpled you, getting ticklish?
here we are laughing it off
now you can come closer enough
breathe this whole year in and wwwoooffff
A greater one is on it's way
Spread your arms for a hug and kiss
This tight i shall hold you and never let go.


Happy Birthday My Challa...I love You, more than you will ever Know...


1...2...3...Blow...
More than you will ever know
This heart adores your every blink
don't over think
You only own
This soul and Beyond

 







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