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Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Fan Notes...

and hopeless
awake in a dream
dreaming in the wake
restlessly still
and patiently restless
waiting for what doesn't arrive
hating how we can still for, strive 
yet we survive..
our every day life queries
mistaken soar grapes for ripe cherries 
we get drunk on your perfect imperfection
asking too much of what we are not allowed to
hanging on to your utopian myths
we become Greek goddesses and gods
in our own agnostic pantheon
what high stuff are we on?
we are high on you!
and we just give

Question-less answers
and unanswered Questions
Tamed Expectations
and untamed anticipations
wanting what we can't afford
and affording what we don't want
Hallucinated realities
and reel time hallucinations
we just by all means, live!
in our world, we make believe
we look for each other in DM boxes
feast on your little detailed shots
gently hiding with you from you
yet posing bare in your mentions bar    
when you're sad 
we cry in virtual tears
rolling warmly on flesh cold cheeks
that your fluffy petting fingers can't kiss 
and in your happiest moments
with you we laugh
riding your dimpled added photograph
in loud cheers
for a joke by then you said
that we sometimes don't understand
and was probably not for us anyway
picking off what you said,
what you don't
we think we know 
what you don't show
but what we do know is what we think
we always have with you a link
as much of an awaited lover,
as for our loner souls you become the mate
Staying up late,
we haunt your name in Morning newspapers
in the countries where you don't live
pierce the graphic heart with our initials' arrows 
in the margins of books you don't read
we nurse in your love our selfless greed 
track billboard neon lights
for your glamorous ad brand
in the crowded streets of our longings
we collect in our heart drives your belongings
your shirtless shirts
and your flying lip-less kiss
with a thank you note on a sound cloud  
in our sleepless mind eyes
we keep you entertained
laying within the sight and the vision
bursting of our each darkness a moon
off your shimmering light
we live...

We live In affirmative denial
and in denying affirmation
accepting the love we think we deserve
yet deserving the love we can't afford to accept
we become your falling water showers 
your own human made towels,
freshly brewed coffee beans for your lips
and your favorite tobacco pack of cigarettes
we become things you use
and use you
in your love, my love
we hold on to what we don't get
as we get what we can't hold on to
we turn into rosy gardens in mid winter
Hot summer winds in the arctic snow center
we stare in our steamy after shower mirrors 
for your passing by angel face
smiling "Khoobsurat hai tu!"
being this crazy for you
and more
we live.
Flying to you in paper kites
singing for you in birdy chirps
running to your literal 140 charachters'arms 
lip locking phone screens in The .AM bed
whipping those tears we smilingly shed
at your silence
madly insisting
vulnerably resisting 
we crumble 
just like you
we love you,
a love that is too big
for all the linguistic heritage to decipher
and perhaps more than a 3 hours length celluloid can ever action.   




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