Vocabulary tricks...

I look for a “where”
To add an “are you?” and enjoy
That secretive feeling of self-made satisfaction
Like a forbidden fruit
That I long to taste
Then I look for an ‘I”
To add my “miss you”
Pretending I heard it
As In my heart I felt it
Coming out of your ribs with a sigh,
adorned with a masqueraded “why?”
That I would reveal with an “are you so late?”
My whole life I waited
For this dangerous language vocabulary
Recruited in your army
as one volunteering mercenary
Hidden among those common letters
Of greeting updates
And when I see those sneaking ‘L’
“O”, “v” and “e”
I feel it coming in me
Blown in your musky breathe
And resting on my husky mess
As I keep trying to hold on to myself
Not to melt in the heat of the read
Even if the letters join other ones
To make different turns
Still my heart doesn’t get these burns
The words look plain and warm
Charged with your neutral storm
What was I expecting?
In my dream I see them unfolded
But in real I would fold them as neat
Racing my own heartbeat
And replying to my unmade requests
By adding my own fantasized question marks,
That shine within your shading full stops.